Okay, so I don't want to try to like blow your mind or anything, but work is totally bullshit. This system we live in is totally a fabric of our imagination. We don't have to go to work and do something that doesn't stimulate us creatively. Unfortunately it's hard, almost impossible, to break out of the system that has been created by the rich to oppress the happiness of all and equal rights. Consume less and less is probably the best advice I can give as far as making yourself happier when it comes to being endebted to this thing we like to call "society". Then you can really start to break away and get to have real fun. Remember being a kid?

I don't particularly believe in death, either, to be honest. I believe in consciousness/body dualism, so the two are seperate. I believe our conscious leaves our body and goes to a different plane of existance, where our shell, or body dies. Just thinking about waking consciousness and dream consciousness. Two different planes right there already. My girlfriend and I are also really big in to collective consciousness. A great quote by comedian Bill Hicks that I think perfectly sums up my outlook on life/death is this (3 parter):

"Children are smarter than any of us. Know how I know that? I don't know one child with a full time job and children."

"...all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there's no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we're the imagination of ourselves."

"The world is like a ride at an amusement park. And when you choose to go on it, you think its real because thats how powerfull our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills, and its very brightly coloured , and its very loud and its fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question - is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us. They say, 'Hey! Dont worry, dont be afraid, ever, because, this is just a ride."

And to answer the rest of your stuff, I really wouldn't particularly like to change anything to set up this reality. You shouldn't be so focused about what you would create the past to be as how you should be focused on creating the present and future. Once again, you are still in control of this life, no matter who has got you down.